Yup it’s true that a person’s opinion only matters to himself, that it will not be of sense if others would not even care to hear it out or at least pay attention to it, but it will still not stop me from expressing myself.

Here’s what sums it all up…

“Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart.”  ~William Wordsworth

“And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise.  The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.”  ~Sylvia Plath

“To me, the greatest pleasure of writing is not what it’s about, but the inner music the words make.”  ~Truman Capote, McCall’s, November 1967

I SIMPLY DO STUFF RELATED TO THIS BECAUSE I WANT TO, NOT BECAUSE I HAVE TO OR TO FISH FOR ATTENTION…

MAHILIG LANG TALAGA AKO SA PICTURES, YUP I WANNA OWN A VERY NICE CAMERA THAT CAN CAPTURE EVEN THE TINIEST DETAILS BEAUTIFULLY AND VIVIDLY…

NOON PA KAHIT NUNG BATA PA AKO GUSTONG-GUSTO KO MAGPAPICTURE, ‘YUNG TIPONG EVERY FLASH NG CAMERA AT EVERY CLICK SA SHUTTER E SINISIGURO KONG KASALI AKO, KAHIT PA PAULIT-ULIT NA ANG POSE AT MGA NGITI, ANG IMPORTANTE KASALI AKO…

LALO NA WHENEVER I’M IN A RELATIONSHIP, TALAGANG NON-STOP PICTURE TAKING FOR MEMORIES SAKE OR SHOULD I SAY FOR SCRAPBOOKING SAKE…EH DATI NAMAN HINDI USO ANG SCRAPBOOK SO SA PHOTO ALBUMS, GUSTO KO BAWAT PICTURE E ANDUN AKO : )

EVEN WITH FRIENDS, MAS MADALI KASI AND MAS MASAYA MAG PICTURE TAKING WITH FRIENDS, MAS MARAMING WACKY POSE, MAS MARAMING PICTURE MOMENTS…

I RESPECT EVERYONE’S DESIRE AND HOBBIES OR LIKES OR WHATEVER IT IS THEY WANNA CALL IT, MINSAN LANG KASI SOME PEOPLE TEND TO OVER DO IT, MAY MAGANDANG CAMERA LANG FEELING PHOTOGRAPHER NA, SEARCH SA INTERNET KUNG PAANO MAG PICHUR PICHUR HELLO?!!!???? HINDI KAYA INSULTO YUN SA MGA PHOTOGRAPHER WHO SPENT TIME TO STUDY AND SHELLED OUT A LOT OF MONEY JUST TO GAIN THE RESPECT AND THE RIGHT TO BE CALLED AS A PHOTOGRAPHER.  MARAMING MAY ABILITIES PERO MAS MARAMI ANG PROFESSIONALS, AND I SALUTE THEM MORE RATHER THAN THOSE WHO CLAIM THAT THEY ARE PHOTOGRAPHERS WHO BOASTS AROUND WITH THEIR NICE CAMS SLINGING TO THEIR NECKS. EH ‘YUNG IBA NAMAN DYAN NADADALA LANG KASI USO, KASI EVERYBODY DOES IT, KASI CAMERAS ARE AFFORDABLE, NAKIKIGAYA LANG KUNG BAGA, TAPOS FEELING ORIGINAL SILA.  MATANONG KO LANG, ANONG PROFESSIONAL ENGAGEMENT NA BA ANG NAGAWA NILA?

PERO ANO NGA BA ANG MAS NAKAKAINIS? OK LET’S DROP THE TOPIC OF THE WANNA BE PHOTOGRAPHERS WHO CLICKS NON-STOP, I’M ALSO GUILTY AS THEM.  TALAGANG MINSAN KASI KAHIT HINDI NA DAPAT PICTURAN EH PINIPICTURAN KO PA, E ANO NAMAN ANG PAKIALAM NG IBA? ITO ANG GUSTO KO, NAG ARAL AKO O HINDI KUNG PAANO KUMUHA NG PHOTOGRAPHS, I’M THE PHOTOGRAPHER OF MY LIFE AND NOBODY CAN TELL ME TO STOP EVEN IF FOR THEM IT’S ALREADY STUPIDITY AND ANNOYING.

IN OUR COUNTRY, THERE ARE PLACES RICH IN HISTORY AND HERITAGE, SYEMPRE IKAW PINOY GUSTO MO PICTURAN ANG MGA MEMORABILIA NA ‘YUN, PILIPINO KA NGA EH, SYEMPRE PROUD KA DI BA? TAPOS SA IBANG HISTORICAL PLACES BAWAL MAG PICTURE? E BAKET? KASI DAW BAWAL I POST SA INTERNET? NAHIHIYA BA SILANG MAKITA NG IBANG TAO KUNG ANO ANG PINAGMULAN NG PILIPINAS? KUNG ANONG KLASENG KULTURA MERON TAYO? KUNG GAANO PINAPAHALAGAHAN NG MGA PILIPINO ANG KASAYSAYAN NATIN..KAHIT SA PICTURE MAN LANG DI BA? PERO WAG KA PAG FOREIGNER ANG MAY HAWAK NG CAMERA HINDI NILA MASAWAY…HMMM HINDI KAYA NILA MASABI SA ENGLISH ANG “BAWAL KUMUHA NG PICTURES DITO”

SA IBANG MAGAGANDANG LUGAR AT TANAWIN SA PILIPINAS…MAY MAKIKITA KANG SIGN “POSTING OF PHOTOGRPAHS IN THE INTERNET IS STRICTLY PROHIBITTED” OH C’MON? BAKET NAMAN? SABI NILA BAWAL KASI ADVERTISING PURPOSES DAW, HELLO??? AKO BA ANG YAYAMAN PAG NAKITA NG IBANG TAO NA NAKAPUNTA AKO SA MAGANDANG LUGAR NA YUN TAPOS PUPUNTA DIN SILA EH DI BA YUNG MAY ARI ANG YAYAMAN AT HINDI AKO? DAPAT NGA MAGPASALAMAT PA SILA AT NALAMAN UN NG IBANG TAO O E DI NAGKA COSTUMER PA SILA…

OH WELL, KANYA KANYA LANG YAN EH…BASTA AKO KAHIT NA WANNA BE PHOTOGRAPHER AKO, WALANG PROBLEMA PARA SA AKIN, ANG PROBLEMA EH ‘YUNG MGA TAONG KONTRA NG KONTRA HEHEHE : )

i travel from bicutan to alabang, everyday, to attend these classes, i head straight to my school right after my work in the morning, you can just imagine the things i deal with everyday, add the planning for the upcoming church wedding, they all spell STRESS.

that’s why i really got pissed (as in super pissed off!!!! )when my prof sent me out of the class a while ago… well this incident happened just this afternoon, 9-24-2008 1:25p.m. room 203, he told me i was not wearing the proper attire…

well for starters, i wasn’t wearing jeans, i wasn’t wearing an ordinary shirt and wasn’t wearing sneakers or a pair of cheap sandals.

i was wearing same type of clothes i used to wear last sem during wednesdays and my prof that time didn’t mind at all.

what even pissed me is that the prof insisted that i was not in the proper attire and ordered me immediately to go out of the room, i tried explaining but he said he will just see me the next meeting…

here’s the deal, if you were in my place, wouldn’t you feel the same? i didn’t mind at all that he told me to leave the room in front of the whole class, i’m easy to talk with, if you don’t want me, despite of my explanation, i won’t bother at all to stay, what i’m bothered about is that, i worked from 8 a.m. to 12 noon and rushed to the school to be in his class to hopefully learn something and then he just sent me out because he didn’t like my outfit? because he thinks that i’m not in the proper attire? oh c’mon…how harsh can you get?

it’s like i just did a round trip, from bicutan to alabang (stayed there for a few minutes) then went home

waste of time, energy, effort, gas (dude, do have any idea how much gas i spend everyday just to go to class?) toll (and how much i pay in south express way? )

i just hope you did bother to listen… i just hope you were more considerate…

but then again, you’re the teacher and i’m just your student, what can i do?

geez…talk about the school system we have here…

I was browsing a book of Church songs to copy lyrics of songs we’re gonna use for our wedding ceremony when I came accross the song “Take me out of the dark”.  Maybe I’m guilty that’s why the song hit me…just wanna share the lyrics

Just what is it in me?
Sometimes I just don’t know
What keeps me in Your love,
Why you never let me go

And though you’re in me now,
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
Too many times it seems
I feel I’m not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all

And though I love You so
Temptation finds its way to me

Teach me to trust in You
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won’t give me what I can’t bear

Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don’t wanna be there

You’ve never left my side
You gave Your hand to me to hold
Oh Jesus, I’m no longer in the cold

And yet, I leave You there
When I feel satisfied
I’d like to thank You every day
Not only when I feel that way

I’ve never known a Man
Who’d give His life for sinners like me
And yet, because He loves us so
He’s promised us eternity
And we can have that promise
And be His if we have faith
And just believe

Teach us to trust in you
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
We just forget
You won’t give us what we can’t bear

Take us out of the dark, My Lord
‘Cause we don’t want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
We don’t wanna be there, My Lord

Trust in You with all my heart
Lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won’t give me what I can’t bear

Take me out of the dark, My Lord
Cause we don’t want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
I don’t want to be there

DISCERN

CONTEMPLATE

FEEL…

Even if I’m still dating this guy for almost 7 years now and we’re almost a year married, and now we’re both excited for our upcoming Church wedding this coming December 30, I still can’t get enough of him : )

When I met him sometime in 1999, in his friend’s condominium, I just can’t take my eyes of him, he was so skinny way back then, he was wearing a pair of shorts and a blue shirt.  I couldn’t just stop thinking a million ways how to flirt with him or at least get his attention…He was playing hard to get! Hmp! His eyes were so expressive, his big smile swept me off my feet, the way he carries himself and the way he laid my eyes on me for the first time makes my heart beat fast and rushes blood to my head.  He was 17 then and I, 19.

He was a bass guitar player for a band called Inch, and I was an events organizer for a Youth Organization in which I was a member of, back then.  Their former drummer was a neighborhood friend (thanks to him, he was the reason why I met my crush!!!).  When we we’re organizing a Christmas party, I immediately asked his band if they could play for us, of course it was also a way for me to see him that night.

We exchanged numbers and became text mates, I even wanted him to call me babe (so much for sending too much sign of me wanting him, and what a way to declare a first move!), the exchange of text messages later became phone calls that starts late at night and ends in the morning.  I barely remember what we were talking about, but I clearly remember how it thrills me so much talking to my crush over the phone.

Time goes by so fast, he’s still a bass guitar player for Maryzark, he’s not so skinny any more, but he still send me sweet text messages, calls me up to check on me and I’m his baby now…

My crush, became my boyfriend, my bestfriend, my younger brother, my fashion consultant, my critic, my inspiration and my ever loving HUSBAND…

and there are lots of things I can’t take him enough for…

FOR caring for me

FOR picking me up at school (during our college days)

FOR picking me up at work

FOR hugging me when I feel afraid of the dark

FOR comforting me when I feel like a drama queen

FOR being patient with me and my childish acts

FOR loving my family

FOR loving my pets

FOR treating me like a princess

FOR making me feel sexy even if my waist line is now 28 from a 24 inch waist!!!!

FOR being my fashion critic

FOR being my make up consultant

FOR the best massage in the world!

FOR playing the guitar for me

FOR being my playmate and partymate in our favorite on line RPG game

FOR traveling with me

FOR being my number 1 fan in all the pictures I take

FOR allowing me to be crazy and go gaga over scrapbooks

FOR teaching me how to deal with life’s struggles

FOR being with me in times of trouble

FOR driving for me (the most recent thing he likes doing for me, give him a break, he just learned how to drive a few months ago : ) )

FOR LOVING ME and FOR BEING FAITHFUL TO ME EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS

It just makes me feel happy that I ended up with my crush : ) and I’m looking forward for more years of being with him, in a never ending journey called life…

captured by: Ryan C. Fortuna

Ganun din naman pag pagod ka na kakalaro aantukin ka, matutulog at pag nasobrahan ka. sakit din ng ulo ang abot mo.

Walang pagkalagyan ang mga tao…Pag madaming trabaho reklamo ng reklamo, pag walang ginagawa reklamo pa din ng reklamo…haaayyyy buhay….

: )

oh look! it's me!!!

hmmm….better and easier : ) …nyt!

I love drinking coffee, but I seldom buy from coffee shops like Starbucks, Gloria jeans, Seattle’s best or from any other fancy coffee shops, I only treat myself with these expensive cups of coffee if and ever I have extra money. Not that their coffee doesn’t taste good, (everybody loves, starbucks!!! and personally it’s my favorite coffee shop) it’s just that I know how to be contented with a sachet of Nescafe 3-in-1 *lol*.  Let’s just say, I feel guilty buying a venti of frappe that’s worth a hundred, having it all to myself  while other people tries so hard to stretch a hundred just to have 3 decent meals in a day (oh boy, talk about price increase!).

anyways…

I tried to search a few FACTS about coffee and these are the things I found out.

1. Coffee is the second most traded product in the world after petroleum.

2. Studies have suggested that the consumption of coffee lowers the risk of certain diseases but may have   negative effects as well, especially when excessive.

3. Coffee is not grown anywhere in the United States except Puerto Rico and Hawaii.

4. Drinking a single cup of coffee that has been brewing for 20 minutes provides the body with 300 phytochemicals which act as antioxidants and stay in the body for up to a month.

5. Caffeine, which is found in coffee, increases the effect of some painkillers, especially aspirin and paracetamol.

6. Athletes who test positive for more than 12 micrograms of caffeine per milliliter of urine may be banned from the Olympic Games. This level may be reached after drinking about 5 cups of coffee.

7. Kopi Luwak is the most expensive coffee in the world, selling for between $120 and $600 USD per pound, and is sold mainly in Japan and the United States.

8. United States is the world’s largest consumer of coffee, Germany is the second and Japan is the third.

9. On average, men drink more coffee than women.

10. It takes about 3 to 4 years for a coffee plant to mature and will then produce coffee beans for about 15 years.

11. Coffee provides a living for millions of people in the poorer, “Third World.”

12. We say coffee beans but they are actually berries.

after reading this, ENJOY YOUR CUP OF COFFEE !!! : )

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